My kids make up words

My boys are so funny and interesting and unique; they make up words. So many, in fact, that I've started to catalog them and their sometimes funny, sometimes irreverent definitions on our whiteboard at home.

Thought I'd share a few, for your amusement.

KRACKALICKAKECKO (crack - uh - lick - uh - kek' - ko)
Utterance. No idea what it means. It's just really fun to SAY, especially in a creaky, old-person kind of voice.

BAGINGER (buh - gin' - ger)
Your "private parts" or "danger zone" as Stuart (of MadTV fame) calls it.

WHOBING (whoa' - bing)
The act of whining in a silly, melodramatic way, about absolutely nothing, incessantly, like my son Toby does at times (for example, when he doesn't feel like doing his homework.) A combination of the words "whining" and "Toby."

YESH (yesh)
"Yes," spoken creatively, with an extra consonent at the end.

FOOSCHNITZEL (foo - schnit' - zel)
An idiot or dodo, spoken gently and with good humor. I have to presume the "schnitzel" part is a genetic legacy, due to the overabundance of Germanic DNA in my sons' genepool.

41 years ... young?

It's my birthday today and I feel as old as dirt.

It's hard, I think, for an American woman tuned in to popular culture, to age gracefully. We're so bombarded with images of 15 year old "women" -- women? -- wearing $4,000 Marc Jacobs coats and $600 Manolo Blahniks -- like nature, in her infinite irony, would ever ALLOW you to look like a 15-year-old, once you can actually afford outfits like that!

You know, I'm as vain and concerned with appearances and impressions as the next person (who can't resist looking at all those fashion magazines at the check-out counter at Safeway, dangit!) So what's a gal like me to do, when the media hold out images of "womanhood" that are unattainable (without Botox and plastic surgery) and can barely qualify as "legal", age-wise, anyway?

I have to admit, though, that despite my struggles to be truly, deeply okay with the wrinkles around my eyes, in my usual try-to-find-a-positive-reframe kind of way, I am really enjoying letting my natural hair color grow in -- gray hair and all. It's the new, mature me... and also, the first time I've been totally au naturel in the tress department since, oh, I dunno... maybe 1983, when I first misted my blonde, high-school-girl locks with drug-store hydrogen peroxide and tanned in the Santa Cruz sun, hoping to be the perfect, cheerleading, teenage California blonde. I managed the cheerleading, teenage California blonde part of that dream; never quite did make it to perfect, though.

It's been almost surreal to realize, after all these many years, that I'm actually pretty darn blonde even without the help of salon professionals, albeit a pretty darn ASHY blonde. And there's enough gray sprouting up, especially at the front hairline, to actually be sorta interesting looking. Maybe I'll get to perfect someday yet! Aging perfectly, maybe? Perfectly okay to be me.

Now, I'm debating whether to cut off the chin-length bob I've been growing out for a year. I've a yen to get something really wild and artsy done with my hair - like cutting one inch "Amelie" bangs into a choppy shag. I'm about ready to need glasses again for the first time since the miracle of LASIK made me lens-free six or seven years ago, so why not just spin out entirely and get funky with the hair and glasses, both, eh?

Interesting, isn't it? I'm 41 today, and feel as old as dirt... but the mundane silliness that occupies my mind in this particular, freeze-frame moment -- hairdos, and style, and whether or not glasses can be cool -- are the very same things that occupied my mind when I WAS that cheerleadering, teenaged California blonde.

Time passes, but things stay the same. Or so it seems. There's some kind of depthful realization buried in that sentiment, most likely, but I'm too hungry for cake and ice cream and other birthday-related self-indulgences to really digest it right now. I'll ponder it later, I think. Maybe when I'm 42.

Happy Birthday to Me!

ACK!

The actual BEAR I posted in "Bear Lust" is the one she received the Golden Teddy nomination for. Man, am I bummed I missed out on that sweetie.

Design work, again

I finished a print ad for Tami Lahey of DOLLS N DREAMS yesterday. She was unusual in that she came to me with lots of logos and colors and design elements and background images already on board as part of her long-standing doll business. She's also a recent TOBY nominee, the logo for which we wanted to include in her ad.

As a designer, this presented me with some obstacles because I wasn't as free to create from the heart as usual; so many bits and pieces to include, in their exact, existing form, can be stumbling blocks.

Tami's color scheme, though, was very mystical, and she wanted to keep a fantasy/magical feeling to her ads to match the branding and colors on her website, and that was certainly inspiring. I think I ended up doing just that, and she reports being really pleased with the outcome, which is always a good thing!

GOLDEN TEDDY results

I just received the official Golden Teddy nominee list from awesome bear artist and TOBY nominee Lora Soling of LoraBears, who thoughtfully sent it to me after receiving it from Sarah Peterson, the Managing Editor of Teddy Bear Review. I posted it right away, at Lora's urging, to Teddy Talk; she knows the forum is widely read and the news will travel quickly from there to many happy nominees worldwide!

Talk about people whose bears slay me; Lora makes the most wonderful primitive/vintage looking bears which somehow also simultaneously have an amazingly contemporary look to them. She's a teddy genius! Her lovely CYBELLE is a part of my own artist bear collection from its earliest days. Can you tell I'm a huge fan?

Anyway, totally digressing here...

I'm absolutely delighted to have it confirmed officially that I am indeed a Golden Teddy nominee for 2007 with MR. SANDMAN. Yay, me, once more!!! I'm especially honored after noting the peers in my category, and in the contest more broadly. It's just so validating, and such a giddy moment of pride, to be included in such a talented and masterful crowd. Wow! Wow, wow, wow!

Lora herself got a TOBY nomination (well deserved, I might add), but did not get a GT nom this year. This reminds me to remind myself -- and others -- that hers is one of many cases of absolutely knock-down, drop-dead gorgeous, technically masterful work that just doesn't make the cut sometimes in these contests, for whatever reason. I take huge consolation in knowing that the likes of Sue Ann Holcomb, Lora Soling, and Michelle Lamb, among numerous other giant and indisputable talents, are "overlooked" every year by these contests in one category or another. It's just another solid reminder that we bearmakers can't let these nominations DEFINE us, but rather, must let them COMPLEMENT us. It's another solid reminder that it's important to keep the big picture in mind and to have some perspective, whether we're disappointed about being left OFF a list... or getting big-headed about being included ON one.

Okay. Off soapbox for today.

:)

Regarding the bear in the photo, below

See! Now Tracy Lee has gone and gotten herself a Golden Teddy nomination. And here I was thinking her darling pieces were being overlooked. Silly me. Now I really have to scramble to "gets me some" of her work! I'm tickled for her, though; really I am. She's a doll.

Bear lust

I like about a bajillion different styles of teddy bears and have a variety of types in my small, selective collection. But I'm jonesing particularly hard of late for a piece by artist Tracy Lee of ThimbleBeary Originals.

Isn't this fuzzy critter, at left, just the silliest, sweetest, sloping-forehead-i-est little cutiekins you've ever seen in your life? I really expect him to open his wee mouth and say, "Awwwwwwww, shucks!" Just too, too, cute, and soooo original.

Tracy's work totally slays me, and I admit, I wants to gets me some now before she has twenty awards in her back pocket, thus forcing her pricing to $1K/bear. Cause, ya know, that's a bit out of my price range...

Technology

Without technology paving the way for my internet bear business, design business, constant learning processes, and global friendships, I'm not sure where I'd be today. Technology has enabled some of the happiest and most fulfilling adult experiences of my life. I even met my husband on the internet. Go figure.

On the other hand, I swear to you, it's all I can do NOT to throw my computer, cell phone, and kids' gaming systems -- handheld or otherwise -- out the FREAKING window at times. And a handful of software to keep that hardware company.

This week my almost brand new, fancy-shmancy pocket PC cell phone has decided that it's going to take, like, five minutes to dial each number. Handy (NOT!) in case of emergency, or while trying to maneuver through traffic in a car. AAAAAAARGHHHHH! That was a couple hundred bucks spent on nuthin' worth havin'!

Here then, for your amusement, I share my absolute FAVORITE cartoon on this subject, representing every single feeling I have about technology -- especially anything powered by a silicon chip -- and then some.

I'd cite the source and artist, but I can't for the life of me remember where I found this hysterical clip. If you know, please add that info in a comment to this post.

Thanks, and Enjoy the gruesome truthiness of it!

Design work this week

Here's one of two graphic bits I put together today for awesome bear artist Louise Carrick & her hubby Garnet who trade as BEARS BY BEESLEY. They just heard yesterday that their bunny got a TOBY nomination. So happy for them!






I've also spent time this week reworking the buttons on the Teddy Talk masthead so that they'll be more eye-catching and readable for our readership. A sampling, here:



Last, I spent some time today whipping up a new Digital Design Challenge for the readers at Teddy Talk, this time centered around a St. Patrick's Day theme. I hope we get a lot of participants. Last time we did this it sparked a lot of conversation about photo editing and software which I think helped a lot of bearmakers to get more familiar with their own program(s) at home. Sometimes we all need a little push! You can view the challenge for yourself at Teddy Talk by clicking here. And here's the little "sample" image I created as an example of what someone might do with the elements and rules provided for the Challenge.

PS I just realized, while proofing after publishing, that I used the word "lot" no less than three times in the last paragraph. Strunk & White are surely aghast (and rolling over in their graves, if they're dead, that is.)

TOBY (and GOLDEN TEDDY?) nomination results

Well, there will be no TOBY nomination for me this year. Bummer.

My immediate internal response (I spoke with Mindy directly by email; she's a great and accessible gal) was a disappointed and sad, "Oh, POOP!" But then I roared back into feisty, won't-let-it-get-me-down form, with an inner roar of "grrrrrr.... well, I'll get one again NEXT year,... yes I will!"

Although I certainly have my own inner, personal experience in these rejection moments -- and we all have them, in one form or another -- it's also excruciatingly, pretzel-twistingly difficult for me to watch other bearmakers question their work and their WORTH when the call about a nomination just doesn't come.

Those of us who enter contests, for whatever reason (personal growth and goal setting; peer group approval and notice; expanded customer base; potential price increase per item; etc.), really MUST, I think, in order to compete healthily, have the attitude that a nomination or win does not DEFINE us as artists or our work as "worthy." Rather, a nomination or win simply draws attention to our work -- work which will be worthy, appealing, and sellable with or without contest nominations and wins under our belts.

Happily for me, there's a silver lining to this disappointing TOBY news. The sting of that ego boo-boo was lessened significantly when friend and artist Karen Lyons (who attended IDEX last weekend) made the very public announcement, on the Teddy Talk forum, that I was nominated for a Golden Teddy award (sponsored by Teddy Bear Review magazine.) Yay, me!

I'm still awaiting official word from the contest sponsors on that news, but Karen is as reliable as reliable gets, and I'm sure she wouldn't have announced that news so publicly if she weren't 100% sure of what she wrote.

So I'm feeling very honored and grateful and happy about that wonderful news-- and, yes, guilty a little too, because again, it's hard to watch others doubt themselves when their pieces don't get the same notice. Maybe someday I'll move past that kind of guilty co-dependence and just dive into personal celebration, but for now I figure that my worry about how others are experiencing things keeps me grounded and kind and approachable, so that can't be so bad, right?

I was SUPREMELY excited to read that so many of my bearmaking friends, lots of them "regulars" at Teddy Talk, got TOBY nominations this year. There's amazing talent on that board -- please check it out if you haven't yet -- and I'm so excited to be in the middle of it and to be able to participate there so meaningfully.

It's been a really energetic and exciting day for many of my bestest beary friends and for me too; I'm really happy for us all!!!

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New "branding" -- POTBELLY ARTS

You may have noticed that I've recently changed the "branding" for POTBELLY BEARS to include my other craft ventures: Design, Dolls, and Beads.

I created an umbrella business, POTBELLY ARTS, under which my artistic endeavors of every kind can be listed and categorized, and I changed my logos and advertising and website structure (and color scheme!) to reflect this new paradigm. You can now type in any of my domains -- potbellybears.com; potbellydolls.com; potbellydesign.com; potbellybeads.com; potbellyarts.com -- and land at one, centralized, website.

Some of the reasoning for implementing these changes was philosophical. By using this "ARTS" concept very globally, I can simultaneously highlight all my artistic areas of interest and competency, and all my customer offerings. It's like one-stop shopping. This wouldn't be possible if I continued to define my creative pursuits separately and individually. So this philosophical switch from woman with one finger in each of many pots to woman with ALL her fingers in ONE pot really appeals to me. It's a more streamlined concept to grasp, I think, even from my end of things.

The second big reason I made these changes is that it's just soooooooo much much easier for me, mentally and financially, to handle my business affairs from one central location. As a sole proprietor -- owner & artist for each of these ventures -- I do everything by myself, from being my own legal counsel; marketing rep; advertising developer; and webmaster, to filing taxes with the state and federal government. On a practical level, these things are done so much more efficiently from ONE business (Potbelly Arts) than from a handful (Potbelly Bears, Dolls, Design, Beads, etc.) And this means I can host ONE website, rather than a few; that's a substantial cost savings per year. So it just made sense to make this change.


BRANDING has so many different, squishy explanations that it's hard to pin down precisely what it is and to define it specifically. But generally, I think a good descriptor of "branding" might be: the proprietary visual, emotional, rational, and cultural image associated with a company or a product. I found that definition on a page full of "branding" definitions, here -- just in case you'd like to read more.

I'm still me and my bears will still be offered and distributed and made in the same ways they always have been. Nothing about my approach or my intent or my motivation to create or my person has changed; just the way I represent myself visually, and the ways in which I hope people will come to recognize and remember me, have changed.

I hope it's a change you find attractive and acceptable!

TOBY and Golden Teddy nominations and IDEX, Florida

I'm pretty sure the TOBY and Golden Teddy nominees are being announced today -- Saturday, January 20, 2007 -- at IDEX in Florida. In fact, I know the GT's are being announced today, because the IDEX site lists the time for the GT announcement as Saturday morning at 9:00 a.m.

I can't find the TOBY event in the IDEX calendar, but I know it's also happening this weekend because of reports by Mindy Kinsey, the editor of TB&F (the magazine who sponsors the TOBY awards.) Mindy's also in charge of what sounds like a really fun Girl Scout event and is involved in a teddy bear artist panel discussion which I really wish I could attend!!! Karen Lyons, a fantastic bear and cat artist, sits on the panel, alongside some other amazing soft-sculpture talents.

I'd like to feign calm, cool, collectedness and blase' indifference to these announcements -- that sounds so much "cooler", doesn't it?, than anxious does! -- but the truth is, I care a lot about the outcome of these contests. There's a huge potential for ego bruising, insecurity, and neurotic feelings of inadequacy (Is my work no good? Doesn't anybody like me?) when an artist puts his/her handiwork "out there" for scrutiny and judgement by others. And it can really hurt when that work is, for whatever reason, found not-quite-up-to-snuff, as compared to the work of other artists. Especially when it's truly the very best an artist can muster.

Despite the nervousness and trepidation I feel, though, I'm also REALLY excited to see who ends up with the nominations this year, and even more, excited to see the pieces that get nominated! Even when there's no nomination in it for me, I find that disappointment fades quickly in the face of all that beautiful work, and in the presence of my joy for other artists whose work has achieved notice. It's always a spectacular showcase of talent and craftsmanship.

So I'm keeping fingers crossed hard for me... but also wishing great luck to everyone who entered!

Will keep you posted on the outcomes... ;)

Frustrated

That's pretty much sums it up. I'm frrrrrrrrustrated!

Have you ever done something purely out of the goodness of your heart, with all the best intentions... and have your efforts go unappreciated, and the kindness of your gesture go unnoticed? Worse... ever done all that, and not just be unappreciated and unnoticed, but get CRITICIZED for even trying to do the right and good thing???

Unfortunately, today isn't the first time this has happened. It's hard, after making an earnest effort, to be consistently unseen -- especially when it's only in this one context in my life, with this one person, with whom I can just never seem to "get it right" no matter how hard I try. I really don't think it's me; I think it's a wavelength thing. As in, we're on two completely different ones. Aargh!

Thank goodness it's a quasi-professional association, and not someone in my personal life. That would be untenable.

Anyway... just needed to vent a little... feel much better now...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

... a bit late. Pretty typical of me, that. I tend to be over-programmed and am sometimes a total chowderhead to boot, getting lost in the details. Things to work on this year!

One of my resolutions for 2007 is to keep my blog updated more regularly, posting pictures and comments about works in progress and about my studio life in general so that family, friends, and collectors will better know what's going on with me, because work and life keep me running all day, every day, and sometimes I seem to "disappear", or my work does, for weeks on end. Gymnastics lessons and meets; play dates and sleepovers with the kids; trips to the Bay Area to get the boys to their dad (and trips back); plus accommodating husband Tim's night job (he sees private therapy clients Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday nights in addition to his 40+ hour a week job as a Mental Health Supervisor for Butte County) and my stepson Zack (16 and on the wrestling team) make for a really full schedule. I admit, it's really hard sometimes to get the bearmaking and dollmaking and beadmaking and graphic design time that, in an ideal world, I'd really like. Yeesh, I'm tired anew, just READING about all that! Anyway, my point is, if I keep up with my blog more regularly, nobody has to guess where I've been, what I'm doing, when my next pieces will be available, and so on. So I'm committed. Stay tuned...

To begin the updates -->

GRAPHIC DESIGN PROJECTS
This week, I'm working on a handful of design projects that suddenly poured into my lap over the last few weeks (always a good thing, that.) More bears and dolls will be in the works within the next few days, though; I'm itching bad, to get building something touchable really soon.

Here's something I've been working on this week for Hawaiian bear artist Jody Tokioka, who makes really cute open-mouth bears. Go ahead and click on it, if you're interested, for a larger view. I'm proud of the gold metallic effect I achieved! It doesn't hurt that Jody's bears are drop-dead gorgeous, either; there's nothing like a beautiful product like hers to showcase those graphic design skills!

TEDDY BEAR CONTESTS
I have only one entry in the big, magazine-sponsored US contests this year. My piece is MR. SANDMAN: BRINGER OF DREAMS, and he's been entered into both the TOBY (sponsored by Teddy Bear & Friends) and Golden Teddy (sponsored by Teddy Bear Review) competitions.

I have this "thing" about making new, out of this world pieces specifically for the contests. Maybe I'm a bit superstitious in that way, but I don't like entering past work, even if it might be contest-worthy. We'll see how SANDMAN does!

I've been so blessed by, and am so grateful for, my nominations and wins in the contests for 2005 and 2006, so of course I have high hopes this year -- and a fear of failure, too. I avoided the "Friends" category this year, on purpose, and plunged into SANDMAN with all my heart in the hopes that my BEARS -- which, after all, is what I mostly make! -- might earn some notice, instead of my "other" critters, which have been my most recognized pieces to date. Please keep your fingers crossed for me and my dream-weaving SANDMAN! The TOBY nominee announcement will come first, as soon as Friday, January 19; that's the date for IDEX . Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Clicking on MR. SANDMAN will bring you to a slightly bigger version of this photo. For a REALLY big one, go to my website, www.potbellybears.com and click on GALLERY, and then his tiny photo. He's got a whole page to himself there!

DOLLMAKING
I also tried something really scary and daunting and new, but exciting, earlier this month: I submitted my doll, FLEUR, to amazing doll artist and Lark Books juror Akira Blount, in the hopes that she might be selected for publication in their upcoming book to be published Fall 2007, 500 HANDMADE DOLLS. Kinda a big goal for a first doll, eh? Kinda a big goal for a doll in general, methinks. But I wouldn't be me if I weren't pushing and pushing and pushing myself to do something new, and do it my best, and then feign bravey and just get "out there" with my work. So once I saw the Call for Submissions for the 500 Handmade Dolls book, FLEUR just HAD TO BE created. :)

It was no small feat to prep for this submission because, unlike the teddy bear magazines I'm so accustomed to working with -- which have certain print quality parameters -- Lark publishes super-high quality coffee table books with gorgeous photography. So my images needed to be not just of the finest quality (in terms of data and composition), but also, had to be submitted either as RAW digital files (my camera doesn't do that!) or as slides or transparencies, which I had no previous experience in creating.

Happily, I managed what I think are some really great shots of FLEUR, and I was supremely happy with how she turned out, which was just as I imagined, in all her goofy, mixed-media glory. I found a great place online which produces wonderful slides in ONE day and will overnight them for a fee -- www.iprintfromhome.com. I highly recommend them. So it all worked out.

This is my FLEUR. She's my absolute pride and joy; I adored making her! She's come to represent what I predict will be an ongoing obsession with me. I am totally inspired by Basel, Switzerland's FASNACHT carnival in the creation of my dolls; I was witness to the wee-hour Morgenstreich parade once, years ago, and the images of that magical night never left me. I think this dollmaking thing is here to stay! Click on FLEUR's photo to get a really big version of her closeup; you can even see paintstrokes!

I hope you've enjoyed my studio updates for mid-January, 2007. I promise to keep 'em coming!

Happy Creating,
Shel